Missionary Journal – July 18, 1989

Day 49 of my full-time mission
Area: Afton, Wyoming

This morning I read the scriptures for about two hours. In particular, the Doctrine and Covenants hit me strongly. I realize that I needn’t be looking for a sign. I know it’s true. The thing I need to do to get an answer, though, is humble myself. Maybe I am seeking missionary status, to be a senior companion, a district leader, or an assistant to the president. That’s wrong. I need to concentrate on love, caring for, and finding the honest in heart to preach the gospel to and let the spirit teach.

I repented of my pride and lack of humility, and I think I should talk to President Shumway. Then I’ll be in good standing with my Heavenly Father, and He’ll be glad to speak with me.

It’s about 7:30 a.m. now, and we’re waiting for our ride to the Thayne conference meeting.

I got a letter from Elder Humphries today. Boy, it’s good to hear from him. He’s having a rough time too.

We tracted all day in Bedford. We were fed lunch and talked with a lot of members until 4 p.m. It was fun.

This morning, I really felt good after praying. I realized that I had gotten caught up in wanting things to be easy for me. Well, I need to realize they won’t be. I can trust in my Heavenly Father to watch over and protest me, I know. I also know this has to be His work. For many times the spirit has touched my soul in relation to this church and its doctrine. I can’t deny that. I believe Satan wants to get a hold of me. Once you stop realizing the good things you do have, you dwell on the bad, and that’s not good. I have to remember: a positive attitude!

The conference meeting was pretty good. It’s nice to work with people who are really trying.

I wrote Elder Humphries a four-page letter today. I hope he likes it.

I’m feeling good about my standing with Heavenly Father. I need to have faith.

My Scripture: Mosiah 3:8 — And he shall be called Jesus Christ, the Son of God…